Monday, October 10, 2011

Me & The Moon


I must say, The Weber State campus is quite stunning around this time of year. 
I've been doing the same old routine: Work and school. (Oh, and sometimes I kick box with my little sisters) 
Sometimes, I can't help but have that annoying attitude of.."Where is school even going to get me? I wish I could just quit..." 
Well, I just feel like I shouldn't. Maybe I can stick it out a little bit longer ;) 
Often I think to myself... "School just isn't for me...it's hard" 
Then something hit me.. School isn't "for" anyone. It IS hard. Nobody WANTS to go to school once they start. But we do it. To better ourselves. Right now, I just care about being a well educated, well rounded person. BORRRINNGGG.

So lately, In addition to spending my time at work and school, I have been spending a stupendous amount of time with this individual named Clinton Yingling. No, he is not asian looking. He is different than most boys that I know. I always love when new people enter my life. No matter what role they play. Sometimes they don't have one. All I know is.. I like having someone that will spontaneously drive to Salt Lake with me for the sole purpose of getting some coffee. It's a very rare quality when someone can genuinely make me laugh, so this friendship is appreciated. I appreciate and admire those with intelligence and passion. He made this bitchin, hilarious sign for the Occupy SLC protests. 

Now that I have looked into this issue myself, and talked to some other friends about it as well, I think I'll go check things out on my day off this week. Like a Boss. 


So I have this amazing friend named Garett W. Smith. He is serving and LDS mission in due time, and he will be super duper missed. Recently, it was his birthday. Garett, Chaundi, Moses and I went to The Harvest Moon Festival in downtown Ogden. It was so much fun! They had this awesome bluegrass sort of band playing outside, and Chanudi and I couldn't resist the annoying urge to dance. We ran up right to the front of the stage while the music was blasting, and classed up our dance moves. Eventually, Garett and Moses joined us :) I'm not trying to be cheesy or anything.. but when Chaundi and I were running to go dance, it felt like a freaking movie. I felt super alive. With lots of love and hope for the world.. and my friends. Sometimes I sound like a Halmark card. We also had a classy dinner at Roosters. My favorite restaurant! 


One day, I came home from work and walked upstairs. I saw something weird shaped under my covers.. so I said.. "Who's in my bed.." All of the sudden, right before my very eyes, I beheld a beautiful Punjabi Princess, and a Blonde Beach babe, (From Maine) they just popped out from under my covers. Pearl and Rakul came to SURPRISE visit me :) I never like surprises. But this was a fan freaking tastic one. We went to Olive Garden with my little sisters. Camille stole two orders of breadsticks and hid them in her purse. Yeah, we know they're free. We had a great few days. Tony and Garett made guest appearances :) And of course.. we went to freaking Dennys. DAPPY BIRTHDAY RAHUL. 




^ That's my cute friend Colleen. 
She is going to be a mamma. All I have to say is I'm proud of her for all of the decisions she has made with this baby. Going to her shower mostly made me freaked out for myself if I ever have kids. When you think about it.. that's a BABY. A living thing.. INSIDE of you. Wtf. That just seems wrong. Yet so right. I don't know if I'll ever have a kiddie of my own. Considering I can't do menial tasks to myself without bursting into tears. I can't ever have a baby. I am a baby. Anyway, I'm proud of her! 




50/50 is a great movie. Seth Rogen is a hottie with a body. Joseph Gordon Handsome is an amazing actor. When he smiles, his eyes sort of light up. Probably my favorite film of 2011. Poses by Rufus Wainwright is my current favorite album. I listened to it by myself in the Target parking lot, in the rain, and sang at the top of my lungs. Rufus just gets me. Check these out! You won't be sorry :) 

I spent my entire weekend with Daniel Joseph Lollar. If you want to know what true friendship is, just ask him. Because he is amazing at being a good friend. We went to Smith's last night, and a random guy from England started talking to us. I love people like that. Ones who aren't afraid of other people :) 
Basically, I'm learning more every day. I think. I've somewhat lost my blogging charm, but i'm determined to get it back with my next big adventure. Peace Corps? Moving out of state? Who knows. All in all, Ogden is an entirely lovely place. I never really look at it as much as I should. I'm making some small, yet big changes. I'm young. This is the time of my life. 

Monday, September 5, 2011

Neverland



"I don't know what I'm looking for, but I know I just want to look some more."
"I don't know what i'm living for, but I know I just want to live some more."

I'm at this point in my life right now... this point where i'm sort of feeling like... 
What am I doing? 
What do I want? 
Where am I? 
Why do I have to grow up? 
And I honestly have NO idea.
But guess what? Everyone feels like this!  
Something that i've realized lately: Attitude is everything. 
This blog will be where I share my experiences that help me with that path i'm on. You know, the one that helps me find me ;) Unless i'm already here. 
Does anyone else ever feel like this? 
Growing up.
There are so many days where I want to just lay in my bed.. and on these days I say to myself.. "Why do I work? Why do I go to school? Why can't I just be innocent, young, happy, positive, and carefree?" 
The answer is this: Sure, it's great to not have a care in the world. But then I think of those moments. The ones that make me feel totally like i'm living this amazing happiness. And those moments all come from growing up. I feel like i'm at a point now that I can realize the good outweighs the bad :) It's nothing we've never heard, but what if I just took a step back.. and looked at every situation as a stepping stone. Because really, that's the truth. Every friend I make, class I take, place I go, everything I see, ALL of that.. makes me who I am. Obviously. And it changes everyday.
So just maybe.. Growing up doesn't suck so much.  
And maybe changing everyday is okay.